dammit, i totally failed in updating this stuff. it is a shame, cuz i wanted to keep this as my primar diary, sort of. i have been writing on myspace but now that being online is so complicated and uncomfortable, i can't be bothered to do much else than listen to music on last.fm. thank goddess for the radio, cuz my winamp never works properly.

anyways, let's see if i can make a quick sum-up of stuff that's been going on this year so far, cuz the last time i posted was january 3rd!

so january - was looking for work, not quite knowing what to do exactly, but felt inspired. later that month i realized my boss is not going to send me any money for firing me from one day to the other, and i won't get any money from the unemployment office either, cuz the social support is counted from my part-time job which i quit as last, so i get just a little bit more than nothing. emergency - i need a job asap!! i managed to find a job as a server in hard rock cafe in prague, this cafe not being opened yet, and this job starting end of march, it didnt really solve my biggest concern, and that is how to pay my rents till then. in the middle of february i started a temporary job in a callcenter, which was really horrible and i don't even wanna think about it. the money was pretty shitty, but somehow i managed to pay my rent from that and my tiny social support and a few hours in kfc. survived a month there, then i FINALLY started my hard rock job.

i've been pretty excited about it since the very beginning, and i must say it's really fucking cool. we spent our first week conferencing and training in top hotel, a lovely 4* hotel in prague 4. it was a lot of fun. the first welcome was pretty impressive. the played hells bells by ac/dc at the highesr volume as we were walking into the conference hall, with all the trainers cheering and dancing alongside the aisle. these guys are fucking awesome and i already managed to develop a serious huge crush on this super-cute czech-canadian guy called radek. so it was a lot of fun but we also had to study a lot, in the end we had a little "exam" and guess what, i had the best result from our group of circa 30 people!

we started off the second week with some food tastings and getting familiar with the restaurant. it's HUGE (ground floor + 3 more floors) and it has so much cool shit on the walls.still fun. however, it all stopped being cool when they showed us techniques of carrying plateware and glassware. everyone has a lot of practice with it, but i don't and it turns out to be a serious problem. i have problems carrying 2 glasses in one hand ( they are pretty big) and don't really dare to even carry two huge full hot plates on ONE arm. booo! this really sucks and i know it's all about practice, but it puts my confidence to zero atm.

another GREAT thing - i am bloody sick at the moment. felt pretty much like shit on thursday, went to bed early, spent the night twisting in fevers, and called in sick.  i could barely move with 39C, so didn't make it to the doctor at all. i spent all friday in fevers, no matter how many paralens i took. in the evening i made it to the pharmacy (thanks goddess it's round the corner) to buy coldrex. it's this expensive chemical shit that should kill your virus within 3 days. anyway, i STILL have fevers - saturday night.
if today is my last day to put myself tgether for work on monday, i am not very optimistic about it. moreover, i suspect that i have bronchitis. too many smokes. but i just started this job for fuck's sake, it's so shitty to go on the sickleave straight away. i need to practise it so bad. and not only am i missing work (and money, of course, but fuck it, i am so used to being penniless all the time), but also my lovely canadian czech guy radek, who is leaving back to montreal very soon!!!! the last thing i wanna find when i get back to work is him being gone. that would suck so bloody much i don't even wanna think about it. 

okay, im getting really feverish here, dammit. will try to get some sleep. i am so tired of those feverish nightmares and waking up saoking wet from sweat. being sick like this sucks so much! blegh. i hope you are all well, whoever's reading this. goodnight!